A few words about this morning

 Morning brings a myriad of possibilities. But for very few, it is also a moment of unmovable restraints. Same blank page. Same daily chores without improvisation. Same widening alternatives that could be juggled, put astray, and then arranged like a jigsaw puzzle, but always kept abandoned to grow into an untouchable void. It is a moment of silence and chaos. Silence within, chaos in the world that hustles into a busy day, keeping the UPI or cash transactions running. Unwanted pieces of incomprehensible shouts of construction workers, car honking without traffic in sight, inadvertent garbage bags thrown from a running bike on narrow lanes— each intensifying the tragedy of the common. Every single intruder, outside or imagined, tells you that entropy will reign despite your best efforts to bring order.

I have a theory of the world; so do you. But each is so self-centred, so strongly instilled with confirmation bias, so obliquely narrated to us by our parental genes and social surroundings, so embedded in ulterior motives that it is not even remotely true—and worse, self-decapitating—that at times we never know there were mornings that could have been ours. A favourite song on our Bluetooth speaker, a gentle sip of Darjeeling tea with family, accompanied by occasional glimpses and stares at the printed newspaper or a book, the hope of rays mistaken as sunbeams percolating through windowpanes, or even your late-teenage or early-twenties fantasy of writing a story or poem still exists somewhere.

And when I have finished writing these lines, you realise that this fellow has not written anything new but the same words he would write when morning was a myriad of possibilities and each day a series of fantasies and fantastic daydreams that materialised in every moment of school, highways, the banks of the Hooghly River, or in College Street.

And it still rings true. It is still true. True.
That is not necessarily stagnancy or degrowth over the years.
That is keeping the innocence intact and protected to be able to write his next piece.

13 March, 2026